June 28, 2010


They all said “Hallo” and felt awkward and unhappy suddenly, because it was sort of a goodbye they were saying, and they didn’t want to think about it. So they stood around and waited for someone else to speak, and they nudged each other, and said “Go on.”



June 23, 2010


Downtime, I suppose.

June 23, 2010

I actually put a decent amount of thought into this. ^.^ It’s been so long since I sat down and surveyed myself; those days of my$pace bulletins are long dead. There is so much to say and I’m really unhappy to report that I have no idea how to put it all into words. Actually, scratch that, I do. Because that’s the thing. I know I’m a good writer. I’m just not competitive enough to ever use it. I’m reading a Deb Caletti [<3] book right now and it made me laugh because she talked about how blogs seem so cool at first until you realize the writer just complains about how they should post stuff more often. Pretty true. So in the meantime I’ll sort out my thoughts and leave everyone with this. I hope it gets posted over and over so that one day I find it again! Then again, I’d also like a million dollars. I’ll settle for ten.
Song that is playing right now, or I wish was playing right now:
I’m Okay by Christina Aguilera
Song that everyone loves, including me:
Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Song that someone else introduced to me:
Penelope by Playradioplay; Madeline showed me it.


Song that I just think is really cute:
If It Means a Lot to You by ADTR
Song with a story that matches my story:
Don’t Bother by Shakira
Song about my hometown, or where my heart is:
The Land of Kings by Wisdom in Chains
Song that works best at the gym:
 Song that I quote on my social networking site profile constantly:
The Bad the Sad the Hated by Lil’ Wayne, Joe Budden, and Eminem

Song that I hear a lot:
Naked and Cold by Advent, because it’s my ringtone, ha

Song that is perfect for napping:
Back to Where I Was by Eric Hutchinson

Song that fits any mood:
Walk With Me by Joe Budden

Song that fits a bad mood:
Never Again by Cellador

Song that fits my best mood:
Walkin’ On Sunshine by Katrina And The Waves

Song that fit’s a relaxed mood:
Comin’ Home by City and Colour

Song that always bring back a good moment:
Sol Solis by Moving Mountains

Song that reminds me of dating:
Want You Bad by The Offspring

Song that reminds me of a breakup:
You’re Gone by Madball

Song that always brings back an embarrassing moment:
The Long Haul by xRepresentx

Song that will undoubtedly be my soundtrack to my summer:
We Did It When We Were Young by Gaslight Anthem

Above us, only sky.

June 16, 2010

I don’t like the fiction. I’m still a good person.

June 11, 2010

I can’t work for a living, Simon, it’s impossible.
I’ve tried once. My genius will be wasted trying to make ends meet.

This is how great men topple, Simon.

This movie isn’t a masterpiece by any means, but it is one of my favorites regardless. The idea behind it and the dialogue are beautiful if you ask me. Check it out sometime. 😀
P.S. I had no clue I was able to post things without a title! That just made my night even better, hah.

So yeah.

June 7, 2010

Sorry guyss. Music’s all I have to explain myself some of these days.

“So give it up, throw your hats in the air/ And change just as they land./ You’re saying “We’ll get out of here.”/ Something tells me that you’re too scared to go.”

I had graduation today. My hat didn’t fit and even the mass amount of bobby pins stuck in it didn’t keep it on. For some reason I got a gown for someone 5 foot 3 so I looked ridiculous. I had to sit next to a really intolerable weird kid for the entire ceremony and my face itched a lot the whole day because my mom forgot to pick up my doctor-approved soap last night. The entire thing was so disorganized that we looked like morons the whole time. But in the end none of that matters. I have that diploma, signed and framed. And I may not have specifically worked hard for it, but I did what I had to do to get it, and therefore, deserved it.

Minus the minor bumps and bruises, it all went well. My parents treated me and my friend Hannah and my aunt Toni to Red Lobster and it was a wonderful time. I got to be fancy all day.  But that old friend fear is back in town for a visit. All that’s going through my head right now is, “Where do I go from here?” What if I can’t handle AmeriCorps? What if I don’t make it in at all? What if I die young? What if I die old? Who will I lose? Who will lose me? I thought a full-time job and halfway supporting myself being 18 made me legal. I was wrong, I am still a little kid right now. I know things will end up in the right place but when will that happen? I’m tired of wondering.