April 30, 2011

 “Here’s a piece of advice: let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before.”


Above all others:
-Being choked. I never let people touch my neck, not even kisses. Asajksdsddkgggggg.
-Becoming what I hate.
-Large dogs I’m unfamiliar with.
-Losing my teeth.
-Breast cancer.

I’ve made it this far.

April 25, 2011

My week? You say you want to know about my past week? Well it was pretty crappy, can’t lie. I woke up feeling positive every day but everything that was eating me came out. I’ve also worked 50 hours this week, and I haven’t had a day off in about two weeks. I kinda fell off from everyone, didn’t talk to anyone but Will and Madeline. I haven’t even been to the gym.

I guess I’m single now, and I don’t really have a whole lot to say about that except that it was upsetting. But I’m gonna do me and we’re still trying to be friends until we figure out what we want I guess. Also I guess some people got bad tastes in their mouth lately for my name. Not that I care much, but it’s annoying. Not to whine but, after all this, it’s been exhausting, physically and emotionally. But it’s my birthday tomorrow. I’m gonna be 19. 😀

I guess I feel weird about a lot right now. It will probably take getting used to. But, things move on. Bright days are ahead and I’m getting lots of money for a truck/ tattoos/ groceries/ stuff because I’ve been working so much. AND they might be offering me a manager position, as word on the street goes.

 These are my new kicks. Best $200 I ever spent.

That now every time (for a considerable amount of time) there’s a post on my facebook that isn’t about how much I love my life or me spamming something with JShea and the crew, people will look at it and assume it’s dircted at you. Not all the good stuff I had to say was about you, so why is all the bad stuff supposed to be? I can post whatever song I feel like. *sigh*

Say good-bye to the street lights, bye to the “I can’t eat” nights. So hello to new countries and new languages I can’t speak right.

Dis my boi XV.

This looks similar to me, actually, haha.

1. Andy McKee, “the Art of Motion”
2. Lil’ Wayne, “I’m Single” (Ugh.)
3. xLooking Forwardx, “Take Care” (Breakup song.)
4. Madball, “Step to You”
5. Vanessa Carlton, “White Houses”
6. Terror, “Last of the Diehards”
7. Misfits, “Monster Mash”
8. Brother’s Keeper, “Losing is My Favorite Sport”
9. Sick of it All, “Preamble”

<3’s to 1, 4, 5, and 6.

9. I’m really strving to seem like I don’t care. When I say “striving” I actually mean that I pretty much don’t. Shame never got anything accomplished.

8. I forget about people and move on easily. They come they go.

7. My facebook block list is my best friend.

6. I hate discussing “intelligent” topics with pretty much everybody. Why? Because everyone else is boring. ROFL. No actually now I feel bad, that isn’t it.

5. I can’t use a standard lighter because my thumbs are stupid.

4. I swear sometimes.

3. My greatest physical insecurities are my teeth and my  right leg. I walk with a slight bounce (or limp, depending on who you ask) because my right leg is slightly deformed and cannot go out straight. My teeth aren’t perfect, to say the least. And that’s that.

2. I used to have a speech impediment. I slip up and occasionally speak with a lisp, or pronounce an R like a W.

1. I am OBSESSED with shoes. Not in the girly way that requires me to buy a ton of  “cute” heels or sandals, either. I pride myself on how much more I spent on my Nikes than other people did. I try to keep them clean so badly and as soon as they get unrecoverably dirty, I get a new pair. I feel like my Nikes represent who I am, and I’m not dirty or out of stlye, ya dig?

“I believe now

April 5, 2011

that we are greater
than the sum of our parts.”

“-time is a tree (this life one leaf)
but love is the sky and i am for you
just so long and long enough”
-ee cummings

“And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you
because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places.
Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.”
-Ronald Dahl [Author of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory]

“You don’t want no one to see you like this?
 Maybe you don’t recognize it
but this is your home, this is where your life lives.”