My Drive Is

May 30, 2011





Budden Ft. Emanny – Dreamerz

Check it,
More questions, more answers
More cig smoke and more cancer
More arguing, more resistance
It seems like the closer we get, it’s more distance
More angles, a million different looks
Was on the same page, just in different books
There’s so much I want to say but I got no ground
‘Cause we ain’t break up, more like broke down
Now that’s pain and torture
Add that with restraining orders
Then add the soul of my slain daughter
None of this is how we planned it to be
One big insanity plea
Shit could never end amicably
I miss you trying
You probably think don’t think I try too
When you stubborn and prideful
Not much is insightful
But God was trying to show me something He ain’t think that I knew
Sometimes shit that doesn’t breathe can die, too
Were we just dreamerz?
Waiting for our shot to shoot to the moon?
Were we just dreamerz?
Spending our lives trying to see this thing through?
Waiting to fly away
Waiting to fly away
Waiting to fly away
waiting to fly away
How we go from thoughts of marriage
Thoughts of me copping carrots
Talks of what we’d name her while shopping for a carriage?
But when the dream stopped, who knew you’d see me like a savage
That you dreamt of vacations, but only woke up with baggage
All you ever did was love me, and look at where it got you
And when you wanted more, all I did was say “I’m not you”
I’m selfish not selfless, and I say that with love
So in essence you’re asking for what I’m incapable of
so now I find I’m going over choices I ain’t even made yet
Were we clouded by good times of great sex?
Running fast towards an unknown fate
That altered when I introduced you to my unknown traits
In your dreams, seems you had me pegged as another man
But in mine, only you would understand
In our minds we were perfect
We witnessed our dream get murdered
Now reality is on trial and we both awaiting the verdict
But you’ll always be close to me
Though you said this ain’t how it’s supposed to be
What we had was so real
but you said I don’t care
Never thought this day would come
You said you gave your all and was left with none
But we can both be spared
But you don’t think that’s fair, that’s fair
You can’t see how you ever began to like a liar
You lost track of all the little things that I admired
But when the peace left, I knew we might retire
Thinking man, I live upstairs, I’m something like somaya
Got memories, but at what point are they lost?
You say we could work through it, at what point is it forced?
We shoulda never rushed
‘Cause it’s like now we at a point where you won’t never trust
And for me I cant believe thats all we ever was
The high’s gone, need a better buzz
‘Cause we sleep in the same bed, but we never touch
My solution to every beef is to revisit
Though we’ll have the same emotions, we won’t be so livid
Won’t be so vivid
I think your girl secretly applauded our drama
We don’t need those critics
We owe it to go over our foundation with a keen eye
Sad part to say you never have the same dream twice
We let love and all its possibility
Take us from reality
Made it hard to see that
We were bound together
Just to cover up the pain
I’m wishing the skies were rain
And wipe all my thoughts away
‘Cause im tired of dreaming


May 19, 2011

As my best friend Tony said recently via facebok, “It’s crazy how people can kick someone out they life but complain when nobody’s there for them.” REAL TALK.

At least I know who I AM. I hope changing your mind pays off for you sometime. It probably won’t, but hey, that’s all you.

I’m so excited for this weekend. My best friend is back. 😀

I’ve spent way too long being angry at the wrong people and it’s catching up to me. I need to clear my head. Separating myself from my friends hasn’t been working, it just continues to stress me out and increase my lonliness.

I’m trying going AWOL from the computer for a little. I don’t have a whole lot else going on but I’m sure I can find something better than writing love letters to people I don’t know. I’m outie.

 that there are roads left in both of our shoes,
but if the silence takes you then
I hope it takes me too.


I hope you’re happy and I hope you miss me.


“Anybody I am talkin’ to is gonna be bona fide real. There is no substitution for happiness. Period.” – Suge Knight

“We are born to take care of others. We don’t expect others to take care of us.” – Star Wars

Love this song lately.

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shine so the blinded don’t look twice.
My Fresh, don’t it look nice?



It bugs the heck outta me that they’re all the same size. =,= But, one last thing, I found this absolutely lovely folkish type song. The only link I could find is this one. If you feel so inclined to, I recommend giving it a shot. :]


May 2, 2011