Legal.

April 27, 2010

I feel a lot different today. I’m legally able to do more stuff that I probably wouldn’t do anyway.
Every expectation I had today was crushed. I went from a fantastic time at school to being a crying, pathetic heap of a mess in front of Devin because I had to wait a week for my tattoos. As you can guess, it really isn’t about the tattoos. It’s about how I’m about to lose two friends that don’t really seem to care, and how I can no longer attend my own senior prom that I’ve dreamed about since I was a little girl, after not being able to go last year, either. It’s about how bored I am at school. It’s about how much I miss some people and how much I want to build up a wall to keep others from missing me when I’m gone. It’s about how people can get so sick and tired of being sick and tired and how I’ve reached my limit with some things as much as I don’t want to be there. It’s about how Brandon is shipping out sooner than later and my brother might be, too. I can’t even think about how much I’ll miss them right now. More than anything it’s about how frustrated I am over my current situations that are even too personal in my opinion for this attempt-to-open-myself-up blog. But regardless of everything that happened and everything coming, I’m happy still. I wrote my mom a note about how sorry I am for not knowing how to vocally express my gratitude for her and that I’m going to need to do the things I want to do regardless of how she feels about them because I’m trying to be an adult and she needs to respect that. She loves sentimental junk so I think she’ll appreciate it.
My tattoo WILL be happening on Saturday, and I will enjoy myself and have a lovely time even though I will not be at prom. I had a wonderful time at dinner last night and for the majority of today. I won’t let anybody ruin this for me. Keepin’ it posi+++.

“The cessation of desire meant the cessation of suffering.”

Tell me yours and

April 15, 2010

I’ll tell you mine, my dear.
Then we’ll bury these old ghosts here.

 [Somewhat by priority.]
“STAY TRUE” tattoo — Accomplished 5/1/10. Missed pr0m, spent $180. Worthhh ittt.
“NO RETREAT, NO REGRETS” Gaslight Anthem-inspired tattoo — Yep.
xTYRANTx SHIRT— Got it
MORE SHORTS AND KHAKIS — Got it
NEW STUD BELT SINCE MINE’S ALMOST BROKEN — Done
BOOKS — Pretty much
SWITCHING TO BEST FITNESS SINCE EVERYONE AT MY GYM IS AN EFFING IGNORANT IDIOT— Not anytime soon
THE GASLIGHT ANTHEM SHIRT — Soon
THE GASLIGHT ANTHEM NEW CD — DONE. Arrives June 3rd!
NEW GYM SHOES [NIKE OR PUMA?] — Got BEAUTIFUL Pumas. 😀
NEW IPOD — RIP Norbert. D:
[On condition of me being accepted to AmeriCorps/ traveling.]
CELL PHONE 😀 — Gotten.
LUGGAGE
NEW BACKPACKS
LAPTOP
EXTRA HAIR STRAIGHTENER [Do they make solar powered ones? O.o]
EXTRA UNDERWEAR
KHAKI PANTS/ SHORTS
TINY LOTIONS, SHAMPOOS, CONDITIONERS, AND DEODORANTS
NICE CAMERA, LIKE A NIKON
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

 

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

April 7, 2010

Life’s going well. I would like more spontaneity around me. PSSA started this week; we’re stuck being productive by sitting in the school auditorium for over a month while the juniors take it. I’m worried that the silk for my prom dress from Mood isn’t coming and I won’t have time to get my dress made. But I finally have a date and I think we’re all taking a limo there. “] I made my shirt for A Day Without Shoes yesterday and it looks terrible but I’m still gonna wear it, and pass out fliers for TOMS shoes and the Outlook Massachusetts. It’s been beautiful weather. I feel distant from lots of people but I’m used to that same old sad story of growing apart.  I’m happy. I feel like lots of doors are being opened for me, in terms of friends, my future, and my family. I hope everybody is as happy as meeeee.

Bored.

April 1, 2010

The person you like at the moment finds someone new, what is your reaction?
I don’t happen to have one of those.

Do you believe in the same thing your parents do religously?
No, I’m all for turnin’ that cross upside down and they frown upon that. ;]

Who’s your favorite rapper?
Definitely tied with Joe Budden and Bone Thugs.

What are you thinking about right now?
Mostly how bored I am, how Facebook is calling me to check it, and what me and Madeline are gonna do tomorrow.

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple of months?
Nah.

You see someone running around naked in the street. Your reaction?
If it was someone gay I’d call the police but generally I’d laugh.

Anyone you would like to get things straight with?
YEAH.

How late did you stay up last night? And why?
2:30ish. I had a job interview today and didn’t want to stay up too much.

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
I… I do.

What was the last thing you burnt yourself on?
Straightener.

Have you hugged anybody today?
Yes.

Have you ever kissed someone that had a tattoo?
Yes.

What was the highlight of your night?
Kalindy. “]

Who called you last?
I don’t use the phone so I can’t even remember.

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, or sweats?
Shorts. 80 degrees all day, whoo!

If you were about to die, who’d you use your last breath on to say something?
I’d yell for everyone around me to hear, “Everyone has the same battle.” Oh yeah. I’m deep.

Who last kissed you on the cheek?
Brandon, lawlZ.

What happens when you bump into your ex?
Well I’ve only got one and it was awkward and we avoided each other. *shrug*

How would you react if you walked in on your best friend having sex?
I’d just laugh and stroll out.

Have you ever been to Mexico?
No.

Would you rather smoke weed or pop pills?
Rather be XXX.

When is your birthday?
April 27th.

Has someone close to you died of a murder?
No, but this is a really original question, haha.

Who are you more like, your mom or your dad?
Everyone says I look like my mom. I don’t get it but we have the same personality anyway.

Is your favorite number three, five, or twelve?
9. ❤

Would you kiss a random person for money?
How much money, do they like me, and what person?

Is it okay to like someone else when you’re with someone?
Not really but you can't do a ton to prevent it.

Have you ever had sex in public?
No and I don't intend to.