I’m really gettin’ into this. “And I ain’t too proud to tell you that I cry sometimes. I cry sometimes, about it. And girl I know it hurt. But if this world was perfect, then we can make it work, but I doubt it.”

18.] Your Beliefs

July 26, 2011

How vague.

I believe in I believe that drugs and alcohol destroy people. I believe that substances change people. I believe that everyone who is involved, socially or heavily, in substance abuse has a problem. I believe in prohibition but it would destroy the economy, which is pathetic. I believe that the lifestyle I follow is best for me, but not the best for everyone. I believe that the choices I have made make me purer than people who haven’t, but not better.

I believe that above us is sky and underneath us is turf. I believe that having faith in unseen forces is never a reason to be a bad person. I believe in humanism. I believe in tolerance. I believe that nothing will save me if it’s my time to go, nothing will pick me up when I am in the cold ground. But I believe that there is peace in some way in death. I believe in raising children in homes where they are taught that no matter what, their decisions do not need to echo their parents’ religion, or lack thereof. I believe that religion is powerful.

I believe in optimism, I believe in self medication and I believe that hate is a good thing. I believe that there is a natural cure for everything. I believe in respect for everything. I believe that the world can improve.

 

 

 

“It’s hard to tell you this, it’s hard to tell you this. Here’s looking at you, kid.”

July 25, 2011

“Just so you know, there’s a space that only you can fill. Just so you know, I loved you then, I guess I always will.”

James Earl Jones 

But I’m not the villain despite what you’re always preaching.
Call me a traitor, I’m just collecting your victims.
And they’re getting stronger, I hear them calling.

As of yesterday I am officially a manager. Eep. My first shift on my own went pretty badly, due to a combination of me being so slow at everything and the place being packed. But I’m going into tonight with a good feeling. :] My liscence test is August 4th, but I’m not betting I’ll pass it. Me and my dad have been going out driving and I don’t feel comfortable enough to even take the test. But I might as well since Rosco just sits in the driveway. Poor guy. :[ Wish me luck everybody!

Keep it Going.

July 17, 2011

Today I got called into work on my day off, didn’t get to go to the gym to relieve stress, was in a crappy mood, sliced my finger open, and nearly passed out from heat exhaustion. To reflect on that, though, I need the hours, it’s hot lots of places, the gym is open tomorrow, I got to see Devin, and it was my own fault for not paying attention when cutting plastic with a boxcutter. So here’s my emotional playlist, in the best order of my day that I could come up with.

Reign Supreme- “A Ghost in This City”
Asking Alexandria- “Right Now Na Na Na” cover
Plies- “Cryin’ in the Shower”
Lil’ Wayne- “How to Love”
Joe Budden- “The Hard Part”
Joe Budden featuring Emmany- “Ayo”
The Band Perry- “If I Die Young”
Gravemaker- “Time Heals Nothing”
Curren$y- “I Really Mean It”
Mumford and Sons- “The Cave”
The Gaslight Anthem- “Blue Jeans and White Tee Shirts”
Between the Buried and Me- “Swim to the Moon”
Bob Dylan- “Guess I’m Doin’ Fine”

And here is a picture that I thought was neat.

Everchanging.

July 14, 2011

“The ocean is wider than I first guessed. When roads disappeared, I followed the rivers, but somehow got in over my head. So deep I felt taken. Wait for me, wait for me now.”
Rise Against, Wait for Me

“All because of you I believe in angels. Not the kind with wings, no, not the kind with halos. The kind that bring you home when home becomes a strange place.”
-Rise Against, the Good Left Undone

“I’m not after fame and fortune, I’m after you. When I’ve served my time I swear I will come back for you.”
-Rise Against, From Heads Unworthy

And I’ve never had the upper hand. I still wish you the best of luck, baby, and don’t go thinking this was a waste of time. I couldn’t forget you if I tried. You killed what was left of the good in me.

I think it’s weird how:
-someone can be so fake that they tell you they miss you but when you say it back all of a sudden they’ve got something better to do than text you back.
-easily people are influenced.
-involved people like to be in my life when I cut them off six months ago.
-someone can come through when you don’t expect them to.
-even though I know it isn’t helping me win I’m still being hardheaded.
-lonely I can be one day and happy I can be the next.
-my iPod is so broken that it is literally turning on and playing music by itself.
-I think I’d look good blonde.
-I think I’d look better with gauges.