I heard that you’re settled down.
That you found a girl and you’re married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you.

Old friend why are you so shy?
It ain’t like you to hold back or hide from the lie.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited.
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it.
I’d hoped you’d see my face and that you’d be reminded
that for me it isn’t over.

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you, too.
Don’t forget me I beg. I remember you said
“Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead”
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead yeah.

You’d know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze,
bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it.
I’d hoped you’d see my face and that you’d be reminded
that for me it isn’t over yet.

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you, too.
Don’t forget me, I beg. I remember you said
“Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.”

Nothing compares no worries or cares.
Regrets and mistakes- they’re memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you, too.
Don’t forget me I beg I remembered you said
“Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead”

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you, too.
Don’t forget me I beg I remembered you said
“Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead”
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead yeah.

and 14 inch red lines for that dusty road.”

From Myspace.

September 19, 2011

“Hello, I’m Lee Wesman. For some strange reason, I’ve never really felt comfortable saying admirable things about myself. I guess that you could say I’m humble, but I’d say it’s more that I’m more interested in everyone else than I am about myself. I put too much faith in society and it continually lets me down, but regardless of anything that’s ever been done or said to contradict it, I still firmly believe that people are worth the effort. I have optimism that can’t be broken and convictions that I will stay true to until the day I die. I thrive on change and self-improvement and I get bored without it. That’s probably why I’m so obsessed with fitness and the straight edge lifestyle. Other than that, I’ve never stayed down and I’ve never been out, and luckily enough, I don’t regret a thing I’ve done to get to where I’m at. I have been called many things, and nostalgic was never one of them.”

Years later, I find myself to react best according to what I am around.  I feel uncomfortable discussing myself around uncomfortable, boring people. After having met people who made me want to open myself up I came to the conclusion that I am who I am only when instigated. As hard as it is, I am still optimistic and I believe that I can change the world. I don’t think I’m anything exceptional but I know I can do great things because anyone can. I am not naive anymore, but I am not broken. Dozens of short lived hobbies later, change and the promise of improvement have been the only things I never lost interest in. As lame as the straight edge scene seems to me now I still claim it proudly. As far as nostalgia goes, I still look back on events with a certain numbness, but lately I’ve really been missing the way certain things impacted my life. Like, damn.

Annabel Lee

September 19, 2011

By: Edgar Allan Poe

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea:
But we loved with a love that was more than love –
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her high-born kinsmen came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me –
Yes! that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud one night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we –
Of many far wiser than we –
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling -my darling -my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea –
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

Make the night light enough.

September 14, 2011

It took the worst week of my life, but I finally think I got this feeling beat.


In addition, I could have gone my whole life without seeing Lil’ Wayne jump around on MTV’s stage in checkered pants with his underwear hanging out.
I wish I did ballet but I’m too short to ever go anywhere with it anyway. *sigh*
I’ve been picking back up on the gym.
I ran into an Americore-r last night and it made me think. To this day, I’m happy I left for my life of working and boredom.
I’m eating a chicken sandwich for dinner. Mmmm.

“On this day in 2010.” Ha, thanks facebook.

“They know just where my head is. Where my head is, where I’m headed is, the sky.”

“I turned the music loud and put on my own recital.
In a room full of my idols, made me less suicidal.”

“Keep your head up high.
Keep mine deep in the ground. Hide away the love that I found.
It’s a world that I can’t get out.”

“I hope you bought the moon, I hope you reach the stars. I hope you found the things that you already lost.
I hope you have it all, I hope you have it all.
 I hope you got to see everything you dreamed. I hope you saw the things that you ain’t see in me.
I hope you have it all, I hope you have it all. I hope you live it, hope you get it, hope you got it.
I hope you find it, hope you see it, hope you watch it. I hope you want it, hope you like it, hope you love it.
I hope you achieve it, hope you reach it, hope you touch it.”