Going back.

I want to meet somebody who likes the things that I do. I want to meet somebody that has completely different tastes and styles than me. I want to meet someone shy. I want to meet the most outgoing person in the world. I want to meet somebody that has overcome great obstacles to get to where they are in life and who doesn’t have a single ounce of self-pity. I want to meet someone that has everything handed to them. I want to meet vegan, militant, straight edge warriors. I want to meet laid-back stoners. I want to meet people who have traveled thousands of miles and people who haven’t left their home state. I want to share stories, I want to share hopes and dreams, I want to share my intermost thoughts and feelings. I want to have every conversation I’ve played out in my mind over and over again, and I want to remain a mystery. I want to meet a good listener even though I’m not much of a talker. I want to make someone happy solely by existing.

Reacted.

“Let’s stay together ’til we’re ghosts.
I want to witness love, I’ve never seen it close.”
-Drake, Fireworks

Protected: At times I wonder if we really took the steps.

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I still remember what it felt like to have you here,

and I still remember everything about our lives. And I will always be there to hold you up, and I will always forgive you when we fight, and after all this time I have learned that all those wishes lead to was bad decisions and failure. But you are the one thing that I got right.
-The Saddest Landscape

And now I introduce to you, my partner in crime, the guy I wouldn’t kick outta bed for eating crackers, Doug! :3

An Approximate Tally of my Tax Refunds

Let’s say I will get $2000 back. It could be more, or less, but they’ve been taking 40-100 out of my checks for over a year so I’m guessing it’ll be around two stacks.

$450 or 500 – for the loan my parents gave me for Rosco’s repairs
$300 – overpayment on Rosco’s loan
$300 – on tattoos
$180 – on shoes
$100 – on a month’s rent
$100 – on stupid stuff I’ve needed/ wanted for a little bit

I will have about $400 left for savings, but no real bills to pay for a month so I can save all my paychecks… or blow them. SWAGGA.

Strike Hard.

If you think you’re edgy, you aren’t. Changing yourself according to something you picked up from trends does not mean your physical appearance or personality doesn’t suck. And automatically defending yourself against criticisms by labeling everyone else as too shallow or old fashioned to “get” you, does not mean your lifestyle choices are eccentric.

From these verbal massages,

highed up astrologist, smokin’ wit yo goddesses. Swore that I would do all of this.

I’ve been spending a lot of time with a prospective lover lately…. I’m not talking about it though. For a bunch of reasons.
Went out for soup with my buddy Bob who lives in NC, who I missed quite a bit.
Took Rosco in today so he can pass when he gets inspected and I can go back to crusing and loving him.
Got a bunch of stuff done around the house and now I’m off to pick up a work shift and get that cheddar.
Wore the custom Nikes, in the middle of winter. Because there’s no snow.
Today is my swagga day.

This dude

who comes into work once or twice a week looks EXACTLY like Stalley. And it’s AWESOME.
He told me he’s from Ohio, too, hahahahaha.

Everything’s iight right now. With some Christmas money rollin’ in hopefully I can get a few things off my list of stuff I need.
◊New shoes [my work ones are falling apart so that means my current gym shoes will become my work ones]
◊Rosco presents/ some payments paid off/ his repairs paid off
◊New purse
◊New TV
◊So. Much. Food.
◊Digital camera, that facebook picture is way out of reach right now since my phone is busted too, hahaha.
Umm, let’s see what else is new. I’m a blonde/ brunette/ redhead now. I started getting my hurr dyed and I can honestly say I look much better. I’m starting to look at college, since I think my roomie situation isn’t going to work out soon enough. My Realtalk group is having a Secret Santa and I am so excited. :] Not sure what the fudge to get the person I got, but I’m sure I can come up with something. Happy holidays, errybady!